The Oneders

Another night spent with insomniatic jumble running through my head...disease of choice: wondering myself to death

Ever wonder if/ that/ why/ what...
- that at this exact moment in some place on the other side of the earth some person is writing about the exact same thing, or even maybe the exact same words...
- that someday there will never be any new music because all the songs have been written, all the words will have been used and put together, all the chords will have been played in every way possible, every voice begins to sound the same...
- that you let that perfect moment pass you by...
- that your perfect moment is yet to come...
- if there is a life after this one...
- what will it be like...
- good or bad...
- why everything can be made better with one simple word, smell, touch, look...
- why the stars are so amazing when really they are just simply like scattered x-mas lights hanging off a black table cloth overhead...
- if you had just taken that simple risk would you be a different person...
- if those you surround yourself with have choosen you or if you have choosen them...
- was it a pre-destined course that these were the people you were going to be around...
- does fate truly exsist...
- if the words written were in some way about you and only you, whether you know the author or not...
- why the rain can have booth a meaning of gloom to one but bring another so much joy...
- if those things which you believe make you unique and original are acctually the exact same things 5 million other people think make them unique and original...
- if you were in someone else's shoes would you have the same dispostions...
- would you be happy...
- if you knew that someone that had abandoned you before you even knew them...
- before they knew you...
- if the small stuff really is the big stuff...
- what kind of panties the waitress was wearing, uderpants. odds are they're probably your basic white but then you get to thinking what if there not. what if they're something special I've never even heard of before...
- if the covers are keeping you in bed...
- or is it the fear of starting the day...
- if you have given your best and it really isn't yet to come...
- if this blog is ever going to end...

well I will help you stop wondering about the last one!
anyway this is the list that kept me awake last night. There will probably be another one tonight and again the next...funny thing is I sleep so good once I get there but lately the falling part is the hardest.

but then again isn't the falling part always the hardest...

peace