Chains (finished)

This is the song that I adapted from a poem I earlier wrote.

In search of answers in search of truth
In search of understanding in search of youth
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Not unlike the wingless bird
We used to share our fears and delights
You were so cute whether wrong or right
We never felt afraid, cold or even lonely
Spend an hour apart the benefits we could not see
And those times there was no need to vocalize
Because you knew that I saw it in your eyes
I tremble when your near heat travels up my thighs
I want you with an urgency I just can’t describe
I longed to say I love you but was scared of your reply
Terrified like a child I’d become paralyzed
The camouflaged emotions lead to pain and silent cries
And yet I just can’t tell you don’t you see it in my eyes?
Confessing through this song my dilemma of goodbyes
The feelings quite mutual but will lead to my demise
Chorus:
You do not deserve my chains
All my baggage and inflicted pains
Dazed, I stare at the stars above
Unintended betrayal of love
My shooting star disappears from sight
Your name echo’s and fades into the night
It’s an eerie and mournful sound
That makes me crumble to the ground
There is no life within the garden
Like my dreams, my face begins to harden
And everything about you still seems so flawless
My guiding star has become the darkness
So unspoken our love remains
you do not deserve my chains

These streaks of pen that run down my arm
Used to symbolize how you could do no harm
We’d stay in bed filled with crimson joy
The secret of our love this does destroy
You knew how to ease all my fears
You made sure that old wound did not reappear
So naturally I hated those words and that sigh
See you later and then…and then goodbye
Those streaks of pen turned to blood
You threw my heart into the mud
When mad at you the more it made me hurt
Still so much love though I felt like dirt
But you know now all that does not matter
My spirits been broken bruised and battered
And now I sympathize with the like of Frankenstein
Cause I know what its like to be misunderstood all the time
I go back now…now and wonder why
The tears did not fall as I sighed and said goodbye
Chorus:
You do not deserve my chains
All my baggage and inflicted pains
Dazed, I stare at the stars above
Unintended betrayal of love
My shooting star disappears from sight
Your name echo’s and fades into the night
It’s an eerie and mournful sound
That makes me crumble to the ground
There is no life within the garden
Like my dreams, my face begins to harden
And everything about you still seems so flawless
My guiding star has become the darkness
So unspoken our love remains
You do not deserve my chains

We were so right despite the tendency
To disagree about every commonality
I was sure…sure you were my fate
My one and only…only true soul mate
We were falling and didn’t use our head
We listened to flowers and what the pedals said
She loves me…he loves me not
Then came the day you were distraught
About our love and what all the others meant
From the highest pedestal we began our descent
Those things I used to see as cute
Now made me want…want to puke
Your opinions were stupid and devoid of thought
Same places we’d laugh we now fought
I still had love but now it was changed
Your perception of our relationship had become deranged
This time I knew you saw it in my eyes
As the tears began to fall and we said our last goodbyes
Chorus:
You do not deserve my chains
All my baggage and inflicted pains
Dazed, I stare at the stars above
Unintended betrayal of love
My shooting star disappears from sight
Your name echo’s and fades into the night
It’s an eerie and mournful sound
That makes me crumble to the ground
There is no life within the garden
Like my dreams, my face begins to harden
And everything about you still seems so flawless
My guiding star has become the darkness
So unspoken our love remains
You do not deserve my chains