Poker Face

My poker Face has been holding up well so far
but is begining to crack
and the pain begins to shine through
I am all in
but begin to contemplate my choice to wager all my chips
If I win I win big
If I lose I am out of the game
I have nothing left but the pride I came into the game with
nothing...

I am having a bad day physically and emotionally...

I wish that for just 2 minutes I could step out of my head and just watch myself....

BAH!!!